Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Bittersweet.

Well, it's official...

I have an interview tomorrow.  At 1:45 to be exact.  Which is a way random time if you ask me.  Why not like 1:30 or 2:00 to even it out?

But really that's besides the point because.... I HAVE AN INTERVIEW!

I am so stinkin' excited!!!

There is a little piece of me that never saw this coming and never thought it would actually happen and so the thrill of it actually coming to is just neat-oh!  And now I realize that since i've told you about having an interview you will also hear about whether or not it came through.  Which is also free-ing.  What a way to let go of a little insecurity by blaring your business for all to hear! 

The outcome is in God's hands!  I truly believe and trust that!  I'm just super-pumped about the interview right now!

And before you go blaring anything on my facebook, I would appreciate it if it just stays here on the blog.  I realize this is a public place and any of my fb friends can get this link, but really and truly I don't see that happening.  I think most of my followers that read on a regular basis are non-facebook people.  So check back here if you are wondering about results or anything - instead of asking questions or posting on facebook!  I'd appreciate that mucho!

In my last post I mentioned alot about how my middle name is so not change, but that I prefer to stay nice and comfortable.  Well, i'm realizing that change is good for me.  Change often grabs the hand of Challenge and brings her along also.  And well, who doesn't like a challenge every now and then?

So packing up and moving isn't so much a bad thing for the third time in a row.  Especially when you get a thrill from organizing, decorating, and arranging furniture.  I'll be much more motivated to get things done in my classroom since it's a "new" place.

Oh.... I forgot to tell yall....

This is the sad part about the change.

The other day I was taking down all of my bulletin boards and posters in my classroom so that I could pack away my cute letters my mother made for me.  Those took her hours to make so you best believe i'm re-using them. 

I had a Birthday Graph with all my students birthdays as well as mine and any other support staff at the school. It was very easy for me to rip off their names and throw them in the trash, but when I got to Miss Kilgore and Nurse Kilgore.... almost bawled my eyes out.

You see, mom and I have had the priviledge of working together for the past three years.  A priviledge that i'm going to miss so very much.  I don't need her in order to function at work by any means.  I'm just incredibly blessed to be able to not only live with my mother, sing with my mother, lead worship with my mother, but also work with my mother.  In a world where so many families are ripped apart, I am truly thankful to have such a good relationship with my mom.  Not many people can work with their mother on a daily basis.  I am blessed.

So that is going to be the hardest part of this "new step". 

No more of people getting confused on who to call on the intercom, or who to send the email to, or which box is Nurse Kilgore's and which box is regular Kilgore's.  No more kids asking me if I'm Nurse Kilgore's daughter and why we have the same name.  Speaking of - Mark and I went to a water park this weekend and a parent came up to me and asked, "Are you Nurse Kilgore's daughter?"  See... no more of that.  :(

I enjoy seeing her face every day.  I enjoy sitting with her at lunch.  I enjoy sharing all of my children's successes with her almost instantly after they happen. 

It will be bittersweet.

We are both facing a change.  She is moving also.  So pray for both of us if you don't mind.  Mom as she is being forced to move and learn a new job.  And me as I interview and then figure out where the Lord wants me.

Wednesday. 1:45.

Thanks. And peace :)