Oh, if I could share with you the dramatic events of my health lately I so would, but trust me when I say parts of it are T.M.I.
Just too much!
I will tell you that I found a gray hair on the floor when I was on my knees in my favorite place with the Lord. Lately, I've come to love that posture before Him and often i'll go to the same place. But apparently I have some stress up in this life because gray.hairs.people.
Not just one, but four.
Quite a few people have been asking where I have been lately and while others of you may not care at all, I figured I might as well share.
Made To Crave by Lysa Terkeurst is the current book that i'm reading and if you haven't heard of it or added it to your list.... do so now. It's absolutely wonderful! The Truth's in this book are a lot of the same one's that I have been learning over the past two years. I love it when that happens!
Just a little breif summary for those of you who have no idea what Made To Crave is about - Lysa shares openly that she struggles with her weight and food. She says in her book that craving isn't a bad thing, but that the only thing that was meant to satisfy was God. She encourages us by letting us know that it is possible to overcome this battle with food. It doesn't have to be a continuous cycle.
One of the chapters talks about the skinny girls. I'm so glad she included that chapter in her book, because although I don't struggle with food or weight that doesn't mean I don't have my own issues or cravings. And trust me, you wouldn't want to swap your weaknesses for mine or anybody elses.
You may have read my post a few weeks ago about "Daring to believe that you can defeat the voice of impossible". Well, when I read Made To Crave the "thing" i'm believing that I can overcome is my addiction or craving for the internet.
Do I do anything bad on the internet? No.
Is everything about the internet bad? No.
But I do come home completely exhausted and sit and sit and sit and sit and sit. And then hours later I realize that I have wasted so much of my time. It frustrated me. It disgusted me. It bothered me.
My checklist had time with Jesus at the top, but I could feel in my heart that my checklist had free down time on the internet first. And Ladies, Jesus doesn't look at my checklist. He looks at my heart. And oh, how my heart so longed for Him. I wanted Him first in my heart. I wanted my heart to truly be satisfied by Him and Him ONLY.
It frustrated me. It disgusted me. It bothered me.
It bothered my soul.
I knew that I didn't want to fast or diet from the internet because..... I don't believe in diets.
I knew that what I needed was strength and victory from Jesus. And before I ever heard of Made To Crave or even knew it existed, I knew and believed and even felt Him speaking the same message to my heart about my internet issue.
I needed Him to help me overcome this area of my life. And I believe that it was possible.
I was tired of letting a THING control me. How silly.
So there you have it.
My computer crashed and will not turn on. My facebook sent me strange emails and I was afraid it may have a virus, so I haven't gotten on it in months. That explains where I have been in terms of that.
Thankfully, I find blogger completely beneficial to my life and I don't feel the Lord telling me to close shop, but I do want self-control and victory when it comes to time management.
So I haven't officialy sat down and made a plan, but in the back of my mind i've "made a plan" and if it's not on my plan i'm not going to do it. Right now, i've only been getting on during the weekends and honestly, sometimes i've done so well during the week that I'll pass up the opportunity to get on during the weekend.
In the meantime, I hope you guys are doing well and I hope you're growing intimately in love with the Lord Jesus Christ. He is so very good and I pray that you see that and sense that when you come to this place.
I love you all.