Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Winding Down

I have spent the past 2 or 3 weeks in my classroom trying to get things ready. It's all starting to run together so much that I can't remember if it has been two weeks or three. There are still so many little things that need to be done and last night the stress finally hit me.

It could be the mere fact that today is my last "official" day of summer which means it's my last free day to work in my room organizing and planning.

I left my classroom around nine or ten last night with every single table piled high with books that need to be put back into my closet. That right there gives me all kinds of anxiety.

Not to mention, I received an email from one of my supervisors (i guess that's what she is called) at Region 7 (where I got my certification) saying that my certificate won't go through until my district sends in the information...... really? really? really?

Totally handed that information over to my district to finish signing and do their part over a month ago. Once again... all kinds of anxiety.

I've held it together pretty well up to this point. Or let me rephrase that, the Lord has held me together. I told my mother to keep sending the prayers my way because they were totally working.

But now i'm starting to get stressed. This is where you insert that scripture you've heard your entire life...

Do not be anxious, about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your request to God; and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

Lord Jesus, I'm not sure I have even paused this morning to ask for Your peace.... but I come to You now admitting that I cannot do this without You and Your peace. I come to you thanking You for the many people who have encouraged, prayed, and given to me during this time and I thank You for this door that You have opened.... i'm not sure why You have me here, but I beg You to open my eyes to those moments every day so that I don't miss You. Be my courage, my confidence, my peace, my desire, my joy, my everything. I need You, Jesus. Let Your peace guard my heart and my mind in Your specific Holy powerful name - Jesus.


Casie said...

Been praying for you each and everyday, but especially now that you're starting your first REAL full time job. I love you and know you will be a great teacher.

The Roberts Family said...

Praying for you! I am confident it WILL ALL come together and you will be one of the best teachers at that school!!! One of the hardest things to do in parenting/teaching/or whatever is to stay FlExIbLe when plans don't go exactly as we wanted...!! I know you already HAVE that and will be awesome! Love you!